I mother and Father looked me in a room so they could have a stupid family metting... I am really sick and did not need them threating to stap me with a nife and kill me while my sister was in the room...

they want me to go to conusling... and yet there the problem? they talked about me behind my back and made fun of my inablity to hold a realtionship...

she druged me once I am affriad she will do it again... so I am not eating at home... wich suxs becasues I am trying to go to fanime... food is a waste of money... I think I will not eat...

I have to break up with my Girl Friend... 1st one... this suxs... I think I am not gonna count it...

Shall I live another day or die now to not face what comes next the pain and insantiy...

Press B and go back thorugh the door Violet... This is not really happing...

Still dying with my stomach problem...

still a virgin...

and I am wating for somehitn just dont know what...

Tyring to win a trip to new york through pokemon... I get hella money so haters shut your mouth...

Still need knew firends...

ok thats about it I guess...

eww... I got a myspace sorry if I neglect this I dont want to belive me...

and she won't tell...

I know its a no...

I know she dosen't want to go...

but Ze pretends and gives me hope for somethung I already gave up on...

Go or not I will still be waiting for an awsnser and it dose not mean I am waiting for an awnser from you...

yes or no?

How can I survive?
when I am dying on the inside...
cring tears that I forever hide...
masks and pain is all I know...
hidding softly in all this snow...
I have been waiting for so long...
hearing normals sing there song...
know life is soon to end....
dying here with no friends...
my only commfert before my death I must conceal...
knowing that there pain will be too real...
I must not let them know who I was...
just because...
holding on to my mask in my pocket accepting my pain...

They are still trying to find me...
but they knew that snow was all they could see...
he took my body out to his cabin to play...
he did many things I will never say...
he cut me in place...
he cut me on my face...
he alomst killed me but never quite did...
so he left me in the cold and for a day I hid...
he lost me and I ran away...
only to fall in the snow and stay...
now I am waiting for some one to find me here...
saving my breath to call when they are near..

ANON

Life has been bad I lost at cities again... I have little to live for and I am getting sick agian... if I don't get happy I might kill my self in illnesses... I can't live like this sick and unhappy all the time...